happy,angry+sad...

bcuz say japanese~haha!i always argue wif Brenda about correction tape...she always din ask me n take n use!i'm so angry wif it!y she want 2 use mine?!y she dun go buy 1!y she want me 2 buy 4 her!y she need a cute 1 more than a long 1!christin say my voice good wor!!!i ask ern my que dian...she ask me jie yi or not,i say not jie yi...she say i always say go die la!or wad wad wad~she say she dun like it and its not good...i told her many things like how i learn cantonese,why i know chu kou...she ask me i like or not i know cantonese...i say dun like bcuz know cantonese will know chu kou after it...actually i say not jie yi but after hear that,i onli know that i'm jie yi de...after hear it,i realize that i really want 2 cry...but i dun 1 to cry there...especially in that class...i dun 1 let every1 c it!mayb this is wad i'm thinking...although i'm sad but...i just won't let every1 know what i'm thinking about...i want 2 be myself...i'm not like this...i want...myself...actually what i'm thinking of?i oso dunno...shugo chara...if u r real ,canu appear infront of me...and tell me,how myself is?can i turn back myself?if can rewind,i want to go back when i'm small...no need think what,no need to know what i'm thinking,just do!if want 2 cry,then cry...but now...i'm 14!can't cry anymore...how can i makes the sadness in my heart away from me?can i do it?i just use cp and play 4 whole day but...i really need is some1 can help me and find myself...how can i do it?

期待真正的自己，到底在什么时候……可以找回呢？

守护甜心，我真的很希望……你们是真的存在的！而我……也会一直相信你们可以帮我……一直找不同但是却真正的自己，我……到底是怎样的呢？写完后发现，原来他讲的不是没有道理，我太……不懂到底该怎样去改……但是，改的方法就是尽力，尽量，不发恶，不讲不好的话！这一定是解决的方法！希望从明天起，我真的做到……